Why aren’t I allowed to be excited and happy without it being a cause for concern?
Fuck sakkkkkeeeeeee
I have another fucking doctors appointment tomorrow even though I don’t need it because apparently I’m too happy.
My parents and college can fuck right off.
I was originally babysitting for these 2 girls called Harriet (12) and Chessie (10) but one of harriets friends is staying with them for abit because of stuff at home, her name was Hannah (12). It was all going well, Chessie was in bed and me Harriet and Hannah were watching the only way is Essex, but then Hannah started talking about why she was staying with Harriet and got really upset but wouldn’t tell me why, then when she went toilet Harriet told me what’s going on-Hannahs mums boyfriend has been raping Hannah. But Hannah hasn’t told anyone and her mum doesn’t know, she just thinks Hannah and her mums boyfriend aren’t getting on very well. Hannah then came back in and started telling me about it, like when it started, what he actually did to her, how often it happened etc. I listened and told her that she’s got to tell someone because he’s in the wrong even though she thinks its her fault. She didn’t agree with me at all though because she thinks if her mum finds out she’ll hate her. In the end I just told her that even if she wasn’t gonna tell anyone I had to, so we decided that I’d tell Harriets mum when she got back. Then Harriet went to bed and Hannah sat with me for a while and we talked about what was gonna happen next because social services are gonna have to be involved and she’ll have to be interviewed but I told her to just tell the truth and it would be alright, then she went to bed.
Half an hour later harriets mum got back and I told her, it was horrible, we both cried. But she said she’d talk to hannah and sort it out tomorrow and inform the police/social services but that Hannah could stay with them for as long she wanted. She’s gonna let me know how it goes tomorrow and I’ll probably go up and see Hannah tomorrow.
Now I’m home in bed and can’t stop thinking about it. :(
I’d love to pack a bag and just go. Like just go somewhere for a couple of weeks. Leave my phone and everything behind so I could just get away from everything for a while.
I fucking hate social workers and college and everything. People need to stop being so nosey and stay the fuck out of mine and my families business. Everythings been under control for so long but now it’s all fucked up and I feel so out of control.
I don’t know what to do…
